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how is it that people in my life always seem to judge me with out even knowing me first.... hell at first i was pissed about it. and now like always i get depressed.



i just don't know why people in this world don't get to know people before they make a judgment bout them but no. they want to just skip the long process of getting to know some one and skip right to the part where they make some one feel like shit.



the story of my life. i tell you. all during high school people would call me stupid and other shit, and made fucked up judgments bout me. and they didnt even know me. i mean really that type of shit hurts. it hurts worse then if someone would have just hit me or beat me up at least then they wounds and what not would heal.



and me being me i let it get to me. what the hell am i to do. i mean really all i can do is listen to this shit and then deal with it.





what did i do in a past life to have to endure such suffering as i have endured. i mean really what did i do.





i love, i breath, i hurt, i bleed, i do all of that stuff dont i deserve to have my suffering end to be happy for once. i guess fate is still having fun with her favorite play thing. i am just sick of all the pain and sorrow i have had to endure and at time still do.





all i want right now is to be with my love. she helps bring an end to all of that pain. with her love, her compassion, her soul, her tender touch. with everything she is she has helped me in ways i have never thought possible.



i love you pixie oh so much. where were you like ten or so years ago when i made all of these stupid mistakes.



i love you so much babe.

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PaganPrincessAdina
17:36 May 21 2009

i love you too fuzzy , i was busy making my own mistakes , but we will get through this ok

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vampchica4
18:36 Aug 21 2009

You say that you would prefer them to just hit you, or beat you up.

Never forget that those marks would bring on a whole new level of emotional pain as well.

Yes- it does seem like a person's daily mission may be just to piss you off- and it sounds like you've dealt with the experts at this

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